"pride won't get us where we're going"

:: Control vs. Surrender ::

I love to be in control. I try to control my life, my plans, and my dreams without even realizing it. I think everyone struggles with this in some shape or form. It creeps up on us and before we know it something happens…things begin to fall apart. Our lives, our plans, and our dreams haven’t turned out exactly how we planned or imagined they would. It’s in those moments where God reminds us that we are not the captain of this ship, we’re not in control, and we never were. That’s a hard pill for me to swallow sometimes. 

I’m in a similar place in life where the Lord has put me in a place where I am forced to trust and depend on him…and honestly, it’s very hard and uncomfortable for me. But, he’s reminding me every day of his faithfulness and even though it’s hard to see sometimes I choose to believe. I have to choose daily to freely let go and surrender all of these things that I think will make me happy to the one who numbered my days before I was even born. Even though I don’t know what’s ahead for me, I will continue with this battle of trust. I will continue to fight to believe that my God really is faithful in the midst of all my circumstances, good or bad. 

The older I get the more I want to surrender. I’ve learned the hard way that money, my career or the acceptance that I thought I wanted, are all just empty things if they are not centered in God. My circumstances have reminded me once again that nothing else in this world matters more than truly knowing God and to live a life that reflects him.

Here’s to growing up:)

21 September 2011 ·